Celebrity Hostages

Frank asked me to make a flyer for his band. He’s a painter, so I was kind of surprised. When I wondered about it, he said, “What am I gonna do, paint a tree?” (he’s paints landscapes), so I agreed to do it. I’ve haven’t seen or heard them yet, but I’ve known Frank nearly thirty years, so I’m happy to do a thing if he asks.

I used to see his bands and long-gone venues like Czar Bar when were still in school. The current band has only been together a year or two, but he played with the lead guy’s brother for many years. For a time, half that band lived upstairs from Frank and I in Wicker Park. One morning, after they’d kept me up all night endlessly practicing some Elton John song, I slipped a note under their door saying I’d burn down their apartment with the entire studio’s worth of instruments in it if they played at that hour again. They’d listen for me in the stairwell thereafter, making sure we didn’t cross paths.

But that was a long time ago. We’re all old and more or less level-headed. If this new bands show wasn’t the same night as my opening at the Rainbo, I’d definitely be there. If I haven’t drank too much or over-socialized, I may still trek up to the Montrose Saloon to check them out.

I asked to sell books and art at Jackalope Coffee House’s 7th Anniversary Block Party before looking at the forecast. I roasted in the 90-something-plus horror of it for five hours before packing up my wares ahead of a much needed storm. Strangely enough, I actually made some money. I sold a couple paintings done at the coffeeshop to a couple who’d moved away from the neighborhood and were happy for a keepsake.

Early in the afternoon, the DJ put on something off PiL’s great “Flowers of Romance” record and Martin Atkins—who played a large chunk of its music and lives in Bridgeport—wandered out of the coffeeshop, lured by the familiar sounds. He shook hands with the surprised Dj and I thanked him for making that record, which I’d been listening to since high school. If there were any air in the air, it would have been a truly beautiful moment. But even in the sweltering sauna of Chicago in July, I felt lucky to’ve witnessed it.

I also drew two pet portraits. Both, strangely enough, for local journalists. Megan, who writes for the Trib, told me she knew my work, after sending some photos of her dog, Sammy. And Sam used to live in my building for a couple years. I didn’t catch the name of his two dogs, who were back in his hometown with his parents, but it was good to see him in Bridgeport again.

Tuesday, on a whim, I went to see This Is Not This Heat at Thalia Hall. I’m kind of allergic to reunion shows, but this was one of the best shows I’ve ever seen. There was hardly a wasted moment as the six people on stage made 40-year-old tunes sound completely of the moment. It also helped that I ran into Tim and Jenny, Mark, Brian, Skyler, and Gregg. It felt like a really special night, almost a pilgrimage. Listening to this music I recognized echoes of so many later bands I’ve loved. It was elemental, like having the source for a bunch of tributaries revealed in high resolution right in front of my face.

I would’ve kicked myself if I’d missed it. 

A Visit from Abroad

A few months ago, I got a curious email from Tel Aviv. A professor there wanted to come to Chicago to meet me. Seems she’d been tasked with writing a chapter on migrant writing for Cambridge University’s forthcoming history of Chicago literature and had chosen my work to be part of it. I asked her whether she knew my extended family, as that is my only slight connection to Israel, but she assured me she did not. I had gotten on her radar some other way.‌
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‌I met Sonia and her companion, Daniel, at Wormhole Coffee in Wicker Park. To be more precise, I met them a couple storefronts down. I recognized them instantly–hippieish, attractive couple about my age looking about a bit distractedly. We went inside and had a wide-ranging and completely enjoyable talk. Turns out this pair are inveterate travelers, splitting time between Israel, India, and other points on the globe.‌
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‌It’s a strange feeling for me to be observed; that’s usually my job. But I could feel Sonia taking my measure. It wasn’t unpleasant, only unfamiliar. After all, she’d traveled many miles to observe me in my natural habitat. I hope it was worth the trip. They asked for sightseeing recommendations and I did my best, though I’m hardly a tour guide. They promised to see me a few days later at my library talk.‌
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‌There wasn’t a single homeless person in the auditorium of the Harold Washington Library. There were very few people of any kind. But Cait was there, and so were Sonia and Daniel. An interesting guy named Terry too. He made a comment about moments in my book being like water flowing, which has stayed with me. The talk went as well as it could have and a majority of the tiny crowd bought books. Sonia had me sign one for her uncle on the West Coast, while Daniel asked me to sign one for a friend in India, his next stop.‌
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‌I’m curious what Sonia will write but will have to wait until 2021, when the book comes out. I hope she and Daniel had a good time in town. It was an unexpected pleasure to have met them.‌
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‌ —The portrait above has nothing to do with Sonia and Daniel. It is my third painting of Jane Heap and Margaret Anderson, founders of the Little Review. It is a replacement for a picture that sold at the Dial. Also, I now have a page on an elegant newish site called Neutral Spaces with links to some of my writing.‌

‌—Here’s a sketch of Joe Swanberg interviewing Marc Maron after a screening of Maron’s funny new movie, Sword of Trustat the Music Box Theatre.‌

RIP Leon Kossoff. He was a super important painter to me and many of my friends in art school. I cut out a magazine reproduction of Here Comes the Diesel and tacked it up in at least three apartments over about a decade. Only Auerbach and Hockney are left now from that great generation of British painters.

Counterbalance


A couple Fridays ago I went to a fundraiser for a film site I used to write for and met a woman. The room—a suite for a film production company—was cramped and ill-suited for a party. I threw some money into a glass jar and got a raffle ticket, then squeezed my way toward the windows. She stopped me cold. Then she came up and started talking to me. A few minutes later, her friend arrived and she excused herself but asked for my number so we could meet again. I left the party in a daze.‌
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‌My college girlfriend, Caroline, moved to town to work as an assistant director on the final season of Empire. We had dinner downtown at the chichi hotel they were putting her up at before she moved into an apartment. Then, a few days later, I was carrying an Ikea mattress up the stairs to her new place. She found it through my classmate, Noah, who’s lived in the building twenty years. It feels like a weird time warp for her to be here. We haven’t lived in the same city since 1993, when I left town to go to Boston and become a cabdriver. ‌
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‌I rode my bike to the Rainbo on Saturday and sat in the corner watching young people pile in from some summer street fest down the street. I watched a guy order his very first shot of Malört—an ironic rite of passage for Chicago yuppies. He crinkled up his face after the vegetal concoction went down his throat, then him and his knowingly-laughing pals had a long discussion about what Malört was. A version of this scene plays out at millions of Chicago bars multiple times a night. It makes me sad when I see it because I know the people for whom this is a ritual have no true interest in this city and are just passing through. They’ll recount it decades later, sitting comfortably in whatever cookie-cutter suburb they were always destined to settle. They’ll describe Malört as the most disgusting thing they ever drank. ‌

I pedal to the Hideout and catch the Nick Mazzarella Trio’s record-release gig for Counterbalance. It’s beautiful music with enough ruminative moments to allow my thoughts to drift. As it has every spare moment the last two weeks, my mind returns to the woman at the film party. We’ve met up a couple times and I think we’ll see each other again. At least I hope we will. As I leave the bar, I pass a cluster of people discussing the music they just heard. “Will you be humming that on your way home?” one asks sarcastically. I didn’t hear his friends’ answers, but I hummed some version of it all the way back to Bridgeport.‌
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‌—RIP João Gilberto.