Late Fame

The idea of being rediscovered is an attractive one for any artist who’s been ignored or forgotten. Usually, it happens after they’re dead, so it does them no good and the rediscoverers can make them into saints or devils and to write their legends anyway they see fit. But what if the neglected genius is still kicking?

That’s the subject of Kent Jones’ beautiful little movie. Screenwriter Samy Burch (who wrote Todd Haines’ vicious May December) changes Arthur Schnitzler’s late-19th century Vienna to present-day NYC but I think this story would work in any period or culture. It’s about receiving an unexpected gift, then realizing you don’t want or even need it. That gap between what we imagine and its reality is one of the most commonplace human conundrums.

Ed (Willem Dafoe, beautifully underplaying) is an aging postal employee with a comfortable, decades-old routine: he goes to work, goes to the neighborhood bar, eats his humble meals, and ignores increasingly desperate calls from his sister-in-law about his estranged brother’s imminent demise. One night he finds a dandyish young man outside his door. The young man has discovered the poetry collection Ed published fifty years back and wants to invite him to be feted by his group of aspiring aesthetes. Ed hesitates but is eventually bullied into joining them by the young man’s dogged persistence.

We’re never told why Ed gave up on poetry but his apartment full of books indicates that even if he has not written a sentence in decades that literature has not entirely let him alone. The band of eager young acolytes lights a flame in Ed. No one in his life knows he was once a writer but his new friends treat him as a neglected genius. He doesn’t completely buy it but is not untouched by the unexpected attention. He starts wearing a scarf, earning some teasing from his old drinking buddies, and buys a pack of American Spirits at his corner bodega after asking the clerk what artsy young people smoke.

But the bloom comes off this new rose quickly. The class differences between Ed and the young people make it impossible for either side to truly see the other. They idolize what they take to be his “authenticity” and champion him as an antidote to the skin-deep culture of influencers and fad-chasers they claim to loathe, but, in the end, it’s clear most have not even taken the time to read Ed’s collection of poetry. To Ed, these aspiring artists represent freshness and hope, yet one by one, each one’s mask falls to reveal a far less romantic or idealistic reality. Rather than the next Pre-Raphaelite Brotherhood or Bloomsbury Group, this is just a bunch of aimless trustafarians desperate to latch onto anything at all that might give their day-to-day some meaning.

The understated ending is neither tragic nor comic, but just the right size and shape for this little story. K said after we left the theater that it gave her a new fear of being “discovered” by pretentious writerly types but I say, bring it on. I’ll take whatever kind of misguided, misinformed attention I can get!

There’s a dedication at the end to poet Peter Gizzi who I read with at a house show in Western Massachusetts a couple years ago. Thought maybe it meant he died but it seems he’s still kicking.

Very happy to share the preorder link for Mike Reed’s new record with my collage on the cover. Proud to be associated with this music.

Chartreuse

I haven’t pulled a shift at the bar in a couple months so it takes a little time to get my sea legs back. Prices went up while I was away so the memorized math has to be recalibrated. There’s no art on the walls, which is disorienting. My show here is next month so it will go up after whatever is hung the next couple days. Still, it’s always reassuring to return.

K and Donna are here. It’s a new thing to have people visit me at work. There are also a couple sets of people I don’t really talk to anymore. No way to avoid history if you stay in a place for a length of time. There’s no active hostility, just a lot left unsaid. I bring some ice out from the back, queue up my music, and start my shift.

A girl orders two shots for her and her friend with Cokes back. She lets them sit in front of her without touching them a few minutes while they gab. They’re way overdressed for this place. Then I see her gingerly push the last of the ice out of the Coke with her finger and let it slide down the side of the glass to the coaster. She orders another round later, after they’ve spent time in the photobooth, asks for no ice in the Coke.

I came straight from the bookstore so it’s a gearswitch for sure but both jobs are old hat by now. Neither causes much stress. It’s why I keep doing them, I guess. Other things I’ve done for money, like teaching, kept me up at night. I can’t have that from a job. Though, of course, both the bookstore and bar figure regularly in dreams. Just not as a source of anxiety.

Late in the night, just about the time I figure it’s died out for good, a dozen revelers roll in. They’ve clearly come from some event, a concert maybe, and are definitely in party mode. Many rounds of shots are ordered and the couple guys paying do so with large bills. One of them, a beefy guy in a ballcap asks me if I like Chartreuse. I say I tried it once a long time ago and have no memory of it. He’s a rep and says he’s got rare bottles in his bag. The group is coming from an event at another bar he hosted. Guess this is the afterparty.

I tell Thomas about the Chartreuse and he says friends asked him to smuggle some back the last time he went to France. The old monks’ liqueur is back in fashion because of Tiktok.

The host slips me a twenty to let him pour out shots of his $300-a-bottle-wholesale elixir for all who remain in the bar. We all toast. It tastes kind of like a mint lollipop laced with numbing agent. Makes me think I’m about to have my teeth worked on.

They all float out peacefully right at last call. I mop up a leak from the sink, then we lock up and I ride home through the soupy August air.

I read a few pages from Nathan Knapp’s forthcoming, Schopenhauer, into a microphone.

waxy yellow buildup

I don’t really know how it happened but for a month and a half this summer I spent hours a day binge-watching a soap opera parody from the 70s. I convinced myself this was a worthwhile way to spend my time by drawing freezeframes of the screen and taking notes. I hate the summers so staying in was a no-brainer but the choice of diversion is a little baffling, looking back on it.

I was convinced this weird pop culture artifact from the country’s bicentennial year could say something about its semiquincentennial but I’m not a big idea guy. My other dumb project of defacing presidents is maybe slightly smarter than this, but not by much.

In the end, the experience of consuming some two hundred twenty-three minute bites of audiovisual storytelling reconfirmed that I’d rather watch movies if I have to look at a screen. Two or three hours is about the best duration people have come up with for that medium. The serials are just full of fat and excess. Stuffing plot twists in to stagger to another commercial break. Maybe gorging this way will cure me of ‘shows’ for good. I hope so.

It feels like such a relief not to be watching it anymore. Almost makes me want to go out into the soupy oven outside.

One of the verbal images that hangs over Mary Hartman is that thing about the ‘waxy yellow buildup’ that may or may not remain on her kitchen linoleum floor after she’s mopped it with the product recommended on TV. Makes me wonder what we retain after blasting our retinae and braincells with all this entertainment/data. Making doodles off the screen is my half-assed way of mitigating the damage, I guess.

I really hope it wasn’t all for nothing but maybe I’m fooling myself.

I read William Gass’s “In the Heart of the Heart of the Country” into a microphone.